Somewhere along the way I got it in my head that to really be valuable to the church, God and society, that I needed to do something spectacular ‘for the Lord’. I really thought getting married to Michael would set off such an adventure. I am laughing aloud at myself just writing that – how naive and proud and ridiculous I was! God has big things in store for us was my mantra…overseas mission! radically changing lives daily! full-time ministry! building my cabin on the mountaintop! how marvelous, how wonderful!
What a hooplehead, that Lindsay. I was reflecting on it this morning…How we never really left Omaha (Des Moines doesn’t really count – home was always a short drive away). How whatever glamorous life we imagined ended up with Michael finishing school online, me deferring it till – ugh, I don’t even wanna think about it – Michael working his rear off for not much reward and me at home with two kids. And homeschooling at that. On the outside, what a bunch of fuddyduds. I’m coming to realize (begrudgingly at first, now with gusto) that life’s work is something entirely different than whatever pipe dreams I had wrongly imagined. Sure, we purpose to live our lives simply, and our motivations are vastly different than another’s…well, this passage by Oswald Chambers (yep, him again!) puts it plainly:
Discipleship is built entirely on the supernatural grace of God. Walking on water is easy to someone with impulsive boldness, but walking on dry land as a disciple of Jesus Christ is something altogether different. Peter walked on the water to go to Jesus, but he “followed Him at a distance” on dry land (Mark 14:54). We do not need the grace of God to withstand crises—human nature and pride are sufficient for us to face the stress and strain magnificently. But it does require the supernatural grace of God to live twenty-four hours of every day as a saint, going through drudgery, and living an ordinary, unnoticed, and ignored existence as a disciple of Jesus. It is ingrained in us that we have to do exceptional things for God—but we do not. We have to be exceptional in the ordinary things of life, and holy on the ordinary streets, among ordinary people—and this is not learned in five minutes.
‘…but we do not’.
I must decrease. He must increase. Ain’t it the truth.